Spiral

What's going on right this moment?
Another wrong turn that adds displacement.
Deviating from ideal deviating from my element,
I'm not liking this the situation is not clement.

Life's been a real downward spiral of late,
Maybe i've played into the hands of fate.
It's not the cards laid out for me that i hate,
But rather the simple things i'm unable to sate.

I thought i was out of it but it seems like i was wrong,
If i continue this falling then my doomsday won't be long.
Words are easy to say but i can't always be strong,
Gotta get a grip and find somewhere i belong.

Another year is passing by and i haven't found my way,
Living in the present and hoping for a better day.
Like a lost needle beneath a stack of hay,
Sometimes i just need to loose myself in a fray.

Loosing control in an uncontrolled spiral,
This path of destruction is almost viral.
What are the chances of my awkward survival,
I wanna wake up and not be in denial.

I was wondering maybe,
If you could be the one that saves me?
The one that spirals me into the light i cannot see,
The one that makes me the person i should be.

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3-sixty'

Woke up with you running circles in every single thought,
The comfort of your embrace was the very thing i sought.
The warmth that i longed but could never be bought,
Was left there hanging as the temptation i fought.

360', is the angle you make me feel,
Falling for you in circles like a wheel.
Heels over head and head over heel,
Again and again like a circling eel.

Melt me freeze me like you're fire and ice,
How can i be mean i will always be nice.
You're so unpredictable like a randomized dice,
Can't make a wrong guess i can't afford the price.

360', the way i wanna hug you that is never enough,
Anymore than that and it will be caveman-ish rough.
Maybe i need not worry if you're cavelady-ish tough,
But if you aren't then i hope a gentleman's touch is enough.

Never knew that a 21st century gentleman could evolve,
Never knew there was a caveman within i could devolve.
Till i met this girl with her very touch i would dissolve,
Can't keep my distance cuz with her i wanna be involve.

Wouldn't it be nice if she shows the 360' side of her,
Barney to dresses i need imagine no further.
Her presence itself keeps me above the weather,
Wouldn't it be nice if i could be 3-sixty' around her. =]

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Stars

Sailing out to the middle of nowhere feeling directionless,
Every single minute passes with extreme slowness.
Carrying me further into the pitch black of darkness,
With the stars as my only company besides loneliness.

Wishing i could tell you a fairytale or a folklore,
Thinking bout anything that could ease this sore.
Cause Tonight i miss you more than the nights before,
Missing you from my heart right down to the core.

Yellowman must have took a plunge into the water,
Musta fell off the ship when there was a big waver.
The cold wind blowing causes an involuntary shiver,
The only way to reach you is a message in a bottle i can't deliver.

I gaze upon the stars trying to find a straight line,
The one that will lead me to the direction you recline.
I remember how your eyes twinkle when you look into mine,
How they shine so beautifully that nothing could be more fine.

If some words i say might make you cry,
I will replace them with those that makes you fly.
Cause to me you're like those stars in the sky,
Can't say how much i adore you because i'm shy.

And tonight i'm left with thoughts i couldn't express,
But don't you worry i don't feel one bit of depress.
Cause in the midst of all the clutter and the mess,
I found you in my heart shining like a star no less. =)
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Since When?

Something feels strangely wrong just like a distorted cosine.
Since when does my hand feels empty without yours in mine?
And Since when does my footsteps feels off-paced when you're not in line?
The feeling of something missing sure pokes me like a porcupine.

When you're not beside me i feel like i'm stuck in free fall.
Since when did i became unable to stop missing you at all?
And Since when did i hate the distance between us within the same hall?
Being so close so near yet so far seems to really drive me up the wall.

My dreams aren't as sweet or often not at all when you aren't in sight.
Since when did i became reluctant to sleep before you wished me good night?
And since when did i became addicted to your scent like the vampire in twilight?
Your presence and every single word you say never fails to make my day right.

If my heart were to be an incomplete mosaic then you have the final tile.
Since when did i not need any reason to wake up besides you and your smile?
And since when did i start wondering since when only after all this while?
It could only possibly be the day when i fell for you and only you i phile. =)

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Monday's Coke

It was a mundane monday when the message arrived,

Something so random it made me surprised.

Took me a moment before i got it derived,

And it turns out to be a real blessing disguised.

Grin, why do i keep grinning to myself?

It's as if some weird phenomena presented itself,

Such as the appearance of a christmas elf.

There's no explanation cuz all logic's on the shelf.

Scent, of her hair when she enters the car,

Melts a part of me even from afar.

With her ways to outwitt me she raises the bar,

Looks like i gotta do some homework to be on par.

Smile, the very thing about her that leaves me defenseless.

Packs enough power to knock me senseless.

But i'll do what i can even if i'm hopeless,

To hold on to these moments so priceless.

Sweet, monday's coke was sweeter than usual,

A feeling so warm and at the same time so casual.

If I somehow forget everything in the universe so colossal,

The lingering taste of monday's coke will still remind me why you're special.

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It's Complicated, Stranger. I know.

Hello stranger the one with the smile,
I wonder where you hid it all this while.
If there ever were moments i wish to compile,
With you around i think i will need a file.

I'm holding a map but i want to be lost,
Wanna be in your sight no matter the cost.
The warmth you radiate and the chill of your frost,
Both traits of you that will never exhaust.

I heard your ringtone and it just sounded so sad,
I always wonder if you've been through something bad.
I don't wanna know cuz it's not something i had,
As long as you smile then for that i'm glad.

Maybe an old flame still burns on a candle,
Stowed away somewhere in your heart's cradle.
Every new guy fears a girl's first love tale,
He'd probably rather go poke himself with a needle.

But heck, somethings might just be worth the fighting,
And whoever said it's the same category i'd be competing?
If he's an old burning candle then i'll be your new LED lighting,
And obviously we know who the other would be out shining.

Alpha male complex and Bloated ego speaking otherwise,
All i want for you is sugar spice and everything nice.
It's your heart that matters most to be precise,
If i'm just a supergluer then being the best supergluer will suffice..


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Megamac

Megamac is great but she is better,
A bit more petite but much more slender.
I spelled her name wrongly but it doesn't matter,
Cuz right in my mind i can remember every letter.

I'm not a poet and i'm definitely no writer,
But something about her really makes my brain flutter.
She said she ain't cheesy she's just butter,
But all i know is that she bowls down the gutter.

She's like the sudden red light on a smooth flowing street,
Keeping my mind on the edge and always on my feet.

Walks like an angel when the morning bird tweet,
Karate like a marshall in the Japan navy fleet.

I'm distracted by her owh how can i be not,

Like a whirlwind hurricane she messed me up a lot.

My brain can't think well and i suspect a big clot,
Without her around i'm very much a robot.

How in the world she has so many jellybeans of mine?
Few meters long if you were to put them in a line.
Some things about her mere words couldn't define,
Maybe i'll understand better if she's willing to dine.

Perhaps one day we could have Megamac together,
Or maybe even a few random outings just for supper.
The destination you choose it could be wherever,

With you as my company i could go with... whatever. =)

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p/s:

The ending kinda sucks cause i can't be too cheesy,
Cheesy is for her boybands that makes her goes dizzy.
Still i gotta say she's like an ice cream with a cherry,
Every time i see her my heart's just full of smiley.


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3rd Last Day

It was 1.55am in the morning and i was wondering how,
The feeling that hit you yesterday, sorta hit me now.

Is it the number of times you walk out my car,
Or the the times we waved goodbye from afar?

I booked all 27 days and it does seem kinda cram,
I'm greedy in this way and it's the only way i am.

Didn't plan to fill it all but did i filled enough?
Limited time now makes things kinda tough.

Were you ever so eager to meet a person,
Yet so reluctant you can't find a reason?

Because for every tomorrow you spend with her,
It's another day closer to a tomorrow you won't see her.

I know these thoughts should not even exist,
But it's 2.30am and the feeling still persist.

I shall keep your to-do-list till you are back,
But you keep the memories, to fill anything you lack.

Guess i'm gonna miss her, before the day she goes.
And till then i assume, i'm suppose to swat away her woes.

Leave this place happy, and come back even happier.
Remember happy moments, keep them sharp like a rapier.

So shoo my big distraction, you shouldn't be reading this.
Set your mind to the west, you shouldn't be looking back at this.



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The pOint

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Fade..

Sweetness with a bitter tang like marmalade,
Perfect memories are really hard to be made.
Amongst your memory i try my best to wade,
Swimming against the tide cuz i don't wanna fade.

People meet us and we meet people,
Some we just tag and others we label.
We leave our mark whenever we're able,
From there we connect as if there's cable.

But distance distorts even the best connection,
Even the strongest signal will still face attenuation.
Newer links established are prone to distortion,
There isn't enough time yet for noise reduction.

And so we try our best to keep the door open,
Buying us time for the connection to sharpen.
It's not easy to predict what might happen,
But we do what we can to not be forgotten.

Trying to put my toes behind an invisible line,
It is hard to be sure when you cannot define.
Guide me with a beacon; a smile that shine,
Tell me if i overstepped and it'll be fine.

There seems to be a cloud that will rain on my parade,
A big dark shadow that will always cast me in the shade.
Guess i'll just wash down bitterness with some lemonade,
Cuz i just can't afford... i just can't afford to fade.

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2010 Resolution.. *fingers CrossEd*

*Punctuality*

*Proactivity*

*Healthy Lifestyle*

*Discipline*

*Studies*

*Not being one with the book (toes crossed)*

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Tale oF a Delivery bOy

Hello there princess; delivery boy got a duty,
To pass her a package he hope is still pretty.
Its long overdue and it's starting to get heavy,
And he has to deliver it before she gets moody.

This princess; yes she does answers her phone,
But she's busy and replies in a single word monotone.
Maybe she's occupied and needs to be left alone,
So if he's bugging please just send him into a cyclone.

Good thing delivery boy works till XXpm at night,
Waiting with his red canary; ready to take flight.
When the princess summons he'll be there in sight,
Cuz if he misses it; he's gotta wait another twilight.

And so he waits as patiently as a man could be,
Waiting for a message that says the princess is free.
Delivery boy is efficient and doesn't need much time you see,
Five minutes is all it takes and after that he will flee.

His wait has ended when the message came around,
Off he goes trying not to make too much of a sound.
Sneaking pass guards so he could enter the castle ground,
Her chamber lays the highest where nothing else is found.

And finally he met; the said princess in person,
He passed her the package and snapped to attention.
Cold sweat drips as he can't decipher her expression,
But thankfully she accepts; the gift of imagination.

With his duty completed; he makes his retreat,
It's really nothing much; no extraordinary feat.
He doesn't need recognition; it isn't his real peat.
Because Her presence itself... is already a treat. =)


~ The End~

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Rhythm oF my Heart

Past few days has been a bit of a fuzzy wuzzy,
I lived on impulse and things are tiny bit crazy.
Mornings are late and i am just so helplessly lazy,
Nights are longer as its time the world's less hazy.

The rhythm of my heart becomes the life i follow,
Living the moment and not thinking of tomorrow.
Spend nights basking in the moon and starlight's glow,
Spend evenings leaving footprints when the tide is low.

I'm a bit of a blur case every now and then,
Doing things i know i wouldn't have done then.
Logical thinking only functions when and if it can,
Black, white or grey are all really not part of the plan.

The rhythm of my heart becomes the only beat i hear,
Every beat driving me closer to those people i hold dear,
Every beat driven with a purpose so strong yet unclear,
To decipher the beat, it seems i oughta use it as my spear.

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P for Princess?

Drafting plans like counting sand,
It's funny how i still don't understand,
Her body language and the way she stand,
The tiny movements and the flick of her hand.

It's like cloudy rainbow mashed potato,
Oasis in the desert with a pink flamingo.
Trying to comprehend makes processors go slow mo,
I've got no reference she's definitely like no other amigo.

Lost in her own world when she looks through the lense,

The expression of bliss without an ounce of pretense.

Capturing the moment needs concentration this intense?

A grin formed on the edge of my lips as i try to make sense.

Very much a princess in her very own right,
Her planners are full & waiting list out of sight.

Preoccupied the whole day and sleeping at twilight,
If you get through to her please ask her to take it light.

99 percent of the world sees her warm and lovely side,
But i heard whispers that she has an ice heart deep inside.

Word has it that she rejects admirers like waves and tide,
Should an average ordinary guy really just run and hide?

Is she a princess from fairy tales or a beautiful nightmare?
I guess i have to linger around a lil longer to compare.
If she sees this i hope she doesn't give me her stare,
Because if she does that she'll definitely give me a scare ! XD

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CliquE

Walk out the door and see people on the street,
Strangers mingle with the people that you greet,
Once in a while somebody knock you off your feet,
And the rest of them are just people that you meet.

Clique to clique i've wandered through the years,
To find the one that would take away my fears.
Once in a blue moon a kindred soul apppears,
How many there as i look through my tears?

Why do i feel like a black sheep that come and goes,
Why do i feel like a gigantic torn among the roses?
Why is it now again that i'm hit by insecurities,
Why is it now that i see my vulnerabilities?

A black bird flying among whites still feels like flying solo,
A single note in a stereophonic environment is still a mono.
Lack the charm, lack the luck, what to expect; i am no apollo,
But a soul however broken, still seeks a clique that could bring him crescendo...

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ChOcolatE fudGe

When the sun don't shine and the sky is grey,
Fate isn't kind and you feel like a prey.
Worry not sugar there is always a way,
Lying in a chocolate fudge that could save the day.

When it's gloomy and cloudy with a raining spree,
You get drench and soaked in the rain at 11 degree.
If you're feeling miserable and cannot break free,
Take a sniff of chocolate fudge and dance like a bee.

When the moon is blue and you feel under the weather,
The cold won't go and you just can't stop the shiver.
Hold a cup of hot choc as you would your lover,
Let the warmth seeps in and make this down time over.

When your workload is high till you can't see the sky,
You get all stressed up and time starts to fly.
Try to take a breather but please do not cry,
Nothing like chocolate fudge to feel like summer in july.

Warmths you inside out with alot left to spare,
It's written on the wrapper the makers declare.
Chocolate fudge delivery from me here to you there,
Perhaps it could lighten the burden that you couldn't share.

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Sleep Inductor

Eyelids burdened with heaviness,
Brain cells paralysed with sleepiness.
Preception on the edge of senselessness.
Awareness at the brink of unconciousness.

Sleep is a luxury i can't be given,
Cursed to stay awake and left forsaken.
The taste of freedom almost forgotten,
Hanging by a thread dreaming of heaven.

Droning of the machines' so hypnotizing,
Knocking me out even when the sun's still rising.
Only music around is the hydraulics orchestra singing,
You can't really blame me if i keep day dreaming.

On my semi concious mind is chocolate fudge,
Tried to drift there but i really need a nudge.
Somehow my hazy mind just won't even budge,
Hope the person waiting doesn't hold a grudge.

This freaking place is like a sleep inductor,
The air around here is like a sleeping gas inhaler.
Need to gather my thoughts but its taking forever,
Need to stay awake and not trip the circuit breaker !

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Seriously. Tick Tock already.

When you move around but time doesn't follow,
Obviously there's a problem and a gap in the flow.
While you sit at a spot like a weird freak show,
Why in the world is time moving damn slow?

Miserable is such an inadequate word to explain,
Attempts to escape boredom that ended in vain.
Confined in a box without knowing the sun or rain,
The loss of my time is not worth the microscopic gain.

Precision of the machines in a pace so steady,
Buzzing of the alarm when the molding is ready.
Staring at the clock we nicknamed "speedy",
Seriously clock, just tick tock already.

Snails and tortoise never seemed to move this fast,
Unless you're in a continuum where present is the past.
How many more 60 seconds can i struggle to last,
Before my brain and body all starts to rust?

Wasting manpower just sitting there idle,
Betteroff doing things like playing the fiddle.
If not for expanding my knowledge's cradle,
I won't even be in this Mini stagnant puddle.

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Hey Bristol !

Hey Bristol, do you even know?
What makes you pretty is not the summer or snow,
Nor is it the scenery or beauty that you have for show.
It is the girl that needs a huggie when the temperature is low.

Not to say Bristol, that you ain't beautiful,
But you just loose by a little and that's just pitiful.
It's hard for me to give a huggie when my hands are full,
And she's so far away there's hardly strings i could pull.

So Bristol, why are you keeping her cold?
Have you lost your heat or is it all sold?
Would you turn up the temperature if i give you some gold?
Or would you rather i give, her smile in the form of a mold?

Cuz you see, her smile is like the best thing ever,
Its like the first ray of sun shining after winter,
With the warmth and comfort belonging to summer,
You and I both know, we could watch her smile forever.

So Bristol, why don't you keep her warm?
She's quite a busy girl but you know she has her charm.
There's only this much i can do cuz i'm like stuck in a farm,
But I just want her to know that, i do try to keep her warm. =)

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AsK

Have you paused for a moment & see where you stand?
Have you stopped for a second & take a view of the land?

Are you standing on the the spot you imagined you would be?
Are your dreams on the tips of your finger & not just a maybe?

Am i still the same person I am back then?
Am i still looking for memories that never happen?

Should you be sorry for the things you had done?
Should you be regretting things that couldn't be undone?

Breath the air of the moment and see what i see.
Walk the path of the moment to a 360 degree.

Moments i do not own i still do not have.
Bitter is the sweetness i still do not have.

The road before me seems a long & tiresome one.
At least my shadow's beside me & i'm not the only one.

Fear the future and whispers of the past,
Lost in a maze that is crumbling fast.

Ask rhetorical questions till i'm numb.
So even if there's no answer i won't feel dumb.

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