Spiral

What's going on right this moment?
Another wrong turn that adds displacement.
Deviating from ideal deviating from my element,
I'm not liking this the situation is not clement.

Life's been a real downward spiral of late,
Maybe i've played into the hands of fate.
It's not the cards laid out for me that i hate,
But rather the simple things i'm unable to sate.

I thought i was out of it but it seems like i was wrong,
If i continue this falling then my doomsday won't be long.
Words are easy to say but i can't always be strong,
Gotta get a grip and find somewhere i belong.

Another year is passing by and i haven't found my way,
Living in the present and hoping for a better day.
Like a lost needle beneath a stack of hay,
Sometimes i just need to loose myself in a fray.

Loosing control in an uncontrolled spiral,
This path of destruction is almost viral.
What are the chances of my awkward survival,
I wanna wake up and not be in denial.

I was wondering maybe,
If you could be the one that saves me?
The one that spirals me into the light i cannot see,
The one that makes me the person i should be.

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3-sixty'

Woke up with you running circles in every single thought,
The comfort of your embrace was the very thing i sought.
The warmth that i longed but could never be bought,
Was left there hanging as the temptation i fought.

360', is the angle you make me feel,
Falling for you in circles like a wheel.
Heels over head and head over heel,
Again and again like a circling eel.

Melt me freeze me like you're fire and ice,
How can i be mean i will always be nice.
You're so unpredictable like a randomized dice,
Can't make a wrong guess i can't afford the price.

360', the way i wanna hug you that is never enough,
Anymore than that and it will be caveman-ish rough.
Maybe i need not worry if you're cavelady-ish tough,
But if you aren't then i hope a gentleman's touch is enough.

Never knew that a 21st century gentleman could evolve,
Never knew there was a caveman within i could devolve.
Till i met this girl with her very touch i would dissolve,
Can't keep my distance cuz with her i wanna be involve.

Wouldn't it be nice if she shows the 360' side of her,
Barney to dresses i need imagine no further.
Her presence itself keeps me above the weather,
Wouldn't it be nice if i could be 3-sixty' around her. =]

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Stars

Sailing out to the middle of nowhere feeling directionless,
Every single minute passes with extreme slowness.
Carrying me further into the pitch black of darkness,
With the stars as my only company besides loneliness.

Wishing i could tell you a fairytale or a folklore,
Thinking bout anything that could ease this sore.
Cause Tonight i miss you more than the nights before,
Missing you from my heart right down to the core.

Yellowman must have took a plunge into the water,
Musta fell off the ship when there was a big waver.
The cold wind blowing causes an involuntary shiver,
The only way to reach you is a message in a bottle i can't deliver.

I gaze upon the stars trying to find a straight line,
The one that will lead me to the direction you recline.
I remember how your eyes twinkle when you look into mine,
How they shine so beautifully that nothing could be more fine.

If some words i say might make you cry,
I will replace them with those that makes you fly.
Cause to me you're like those stars in the sky,
Can't say how much i adore you because i'm shy.

And tonight i'm left with thoughts i couldn't express,
But don't you worry i don't feel one bit of depress.
Cause in the midst of all the clutter and the mess,
I found you in my heart shining like a star no less. =)
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Since When?

Something feels strangely wrong just like a distorted cosine.
Since when does my hand feels empty without yours in mine?
And Since when does my footsteps feels off-paced when you're not in line?
The feeling of something missing sure pokes me like a porcupine.

When you're not beside me i feel like i'm stuck in free fall.
Since when did i became unable to stop missing you at all?
And Since when did i hate the distance between us within the same hall?
Being so close so near yet so far seems to really drive me up the wall.

My dreams aren't as sweet or often not at all when you aren't in sight.
Since when did i became reluctant to sleep before you wished me good night?
And since when did i became addicted to your scent like the vampire in twilight?
Your presence and every single word you say never fails to make my day right.

If my heart were to be an incomplete mosaic then you have the final tile.
Since when did i not need any reason to wake up besides you and your smile?
And since when did i start wondering since when only after all this while?
It could only possibly be the day when i fell for you and only you i phile. =)

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Monday's Coke

It was a mundane monday when the message arrived,

Something so random it made me surprised.

Took me a moment before i got it derived,

And it turns out to be a real blessing disguised.

Grin, why do i keep grinning to myself?

It's as if some weird phenomena presented itself,

Such as the appearance of a christmas elf.

There's no explanation cuz all logic's on the shelf.

Scent, of her hair when she enters the car,

Melts a part of me even from afar.

With her ways to outwitt me she raises the bar,

Looks like i gotta do some homework to be on par.

Smile, the very thing about her that leaves me defenseless.

Packs enough power to knock me senseless.

But i'll do what i can even if i'm hopeless,

To hold on to these moments so priceless.

Sweet, monday's coke was sweeter than usual,

A feeling so warm and at the same time so casual.

If I somehow forget everything in the universe so colossal,

The lingering taste of monday's coke will still remind me why you're special.

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It's Complicated, Stranger. I know.

Hello stranger the one with the smile,
I wonder where you hid it all this while.
If there ever were moments i wish to compile,
With you around i think i will need a file.

I'm holding a map but i want to be lost,
Wanna be in your sight no matter the cost.
The warmth you radiate and the chill of your frost,
Both traits of you that will never exhaust.

I heard your ringtone and it just sounded so sad,
I always wonder if you've been through something bad.
I don't wanna know cuz it's not something i had,
As long as you smile then for that i'm glad.

Maybe an old flame still burns on a candle,
Stowed away somewhere in your heart's cradle.
Every new guy fears a girl's first love tale,
He'd probably rather go poke himself with a needle.

But heck, somethings might just be worth the fighting,
And whoever said it's the same category i'd be competing?
If he's an old burning candle then i'll be your new LED lighting,
And obviously we know who the other would be out shining.

Alpha male complex and Bloated ego speaking otherwise,
All i want for you is sugar spice and everything nice.
It's your heart that matters most to be precise,
If i'm just a supergluer then being the best supergluer will suffice..


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Megamac

Megamac is great but she is better,
A bit more petite but much more slender.
I spelled her name wrongly but it doesn't matter,
Cuz right in my mind i can remember every letter.

I'm not a poet and i'm definitely no writer,
But something about her really makes my brain flutter.
She said she ain't cheesy she's just butter,
But all i know is that she bowls down the gutter.

She's like the sudden red light on a smooth flowing street,
Keeping my mind on the edge and always on my feet.

Walks like an angel when the morning bird tweet,
Karate like a marshall in the Japan navy fleet.

I'm distracted by her owh how can i be not,

Like a whirlwind hurricane she messed me up a lot.

My brain can't think well and i suspect a big clot,
Without her around i'm very much a robot.

How in the world she has so many jellybeans of mine?
Few meters long if you were to put them in a line.
Some things about her mere words couldn't define,
Maybe i'll understand better if she's willing to dine.

Perhaps one day we could have Megamac together,
Or maybe even a few random outings just for supper.
The destination you choose it could be wherever,

With you as my company i could go with... whatever. =)

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p/s:

The ending kinda sucks cause i can't be too cheesy,
Cheesy is for her boybands that makes her goes dizzy.
Still i gotta say she's like an ice cream with a cherry,
Every time i see her my heart's just full of smiley.


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3rd Last Day

It was 1.55am in the morning and i was wondering how,
The feeling that hit you yesterday, sorta hit me now.

Is it the number of times you walk out my car,
Or the the times we waved goodbye from afar?

I booked all 27 days and it does seem kinda cram,
I'm greedy in this way and it's the only way i am.

Didn't plan to fill it all but did i filled enough?
Limited time now makes things kinda tough.

Were you ever so eager to meet a person,
Yet so reluctant you can't find a reason?

Because for every tomorrow you spend with her,
It's another day closer to a tomorrow you won't see her.

I know these thoughts should not even exist,
But it's 2.30am and the feeling still persist.

I shall keep your to-do-list till you are back,
But you keep the memories, to fill anything you lack.

Guess i'm gonna miss her, before the day she goes.
And till then i assume, i'm suppose to swat away her woes.

Leave this place happy, and come back even happier.
Remember happy moments, keep them sharp like a rapier.

So shoo my big distraction, you shouldn't be reading this.
Set your mind to the west, you shouldn't be looking back at this.



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The pOint

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Fade..

Sweetness with a bitter tang like marmalade,
Perfect memories are really hard to be made.
Amongst your memory i try my best to wade,
Swimming against the tide cuz i don't wanna fade.

People meet us and we meet people,
Some we just tag and others we label.
We leave our mark whenever we're able,
From there we connect as if there's cable.

But distance distorts even the best connection,
Even the strongest signal will still face attenuation.
Newer links established are prone to distortion,
There isn't enough time yet for noise reduction.

And so we try our best to keep the door open,
Buying us time for the connection to sharpen.
It's not easy to predict what might happen,
But we do what we can to not be forgotten.

Trying to put my toes behind an invisible line,
It is hard to be sure when you cannot define.
Guide me with a beacon; a smile that shine,
Tell me if i overstepped and it'll be fine.

There seems to be a cloud that will rain on my parade,
A big dark shadow that will always cast me in the shade.
Guess i'll just wash down bitterness with some lemonade,
Cuz i just can't afford... i just can't afford to fade.

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